Watching in Reverse

Let me start with the punch line. I resigned from my job yesterday. Now, let me back up. Philip Yancey, a well-known American Author penned these words:

“Faith is believing in advance what will only make sense in reverse.”

These words are exciting, but they can also be terrifying. They require us to have faith and imagination over what God will do before we can see it.

God speaks into and over our lives in so many ways. He can speak a promise to you in response to your prayers. He can plant a dream deep inside of you. He can manifest and intensify desires. If you’re listening, He’ll whisper guidance along the way. These whispers will require your obedience and your faith.

Faith isn’t a passive word. It’s anything but. I love the way Yancey describes it above as, “believing in advance.” Sometimes faith is all about praying and expecting. I consider both to be comfortable actions. But sometimes, God requires more of us, and asks us to do something I would call an uncomfortable action. This is where the rubber meets the road, as they say.

Writing has been a passion since my early twenties. I thought I’d write popular business books like, Who Moved My Cheese? In 2001, God interrupted my dream. It was then He spoke to my heart about writing books for Him. This is a long story I’ll go into more detail in a book at some point. For now, let’s just say it was the beginning of a journey that took me 18 years to traverse. Not so unlike my sisters and brothers, the Israelites, in the wilderness (Exodus).

Fast forward, and I’m finally stepping up to the call. Not all of those 18 years were void of His calling on me. I spent years studying and blogging His gifts of insights, some of which I’ve recently turned into my first inspirational book, The Waiting Room, which I’m actively working on self-publishing. I’ve also finished my first fiction thriller, which I’m seeking representation on. God knew it would take me this long to get to a place where my heart, mind, and spirit were ready. What I wasn’t ready for, was the latest whisper. Faith in action. The uncomfortable part. About a month ago, God asked me to leave my job so I could focus 100% on writing full time. My very comfortable, well paying job. A job I was good at. It made no sense from an earthly perspective. However, I know my Father’s voice and, just as wonderful, God blessed me with a husband who is my true partner and believer in this cause. After much prayer, fasting and discussion (and budgeting!) I handed in my resignation yesterday.

To the outsider looking in, this is ridiculous. I have no published book and no agent knocking down my door. What I do have is peace. What I do have is passion to write and share whatever messages He has for me. What I do have is a work ethic God built in me. What I do have, are ears that want to hear and a heart that wants to obey. God never asks you for something and then leaves you hanging. This step we’re taking is a little scary, but I’ve come to learn, the hard way, that we end up in worse situations when we ignore the whispers and take the comfortable path. I’m urging you today, if there’s something God is speaking to your heart about, to get excited about what’s uncomfortable. The more uncomfortable, the more He wants to move in your life and your situation.

Let me balance this with a bit of wisdom. I’m not suggesting you be reckless and take steps that are haphazard and not in alignment with what the Holy Spirit is speaking into your life. God won’t bless what He didn’t set in motion. If you know His Word and you know Him, you will know His voice. If it’s His voice, and you know the promptings align with Scripture and who you know God to be, then, by all means, pursue it with reckless abandon. Now that I’ve taken the steps, words can’t express the joy I feel in doing something for God that others might see as irrational. You see, I know it was God asking and, for that reason, I know Jim and I can have expectant hearts. I can’t wait to see what He does with the time I’m able to commit to Him.

I’m riding high on the thrill of it all right now, but I’m guessing I will experience times when I get scared or doubt because I don’t see what I think I should see in my timing. When that happens, I’m going to do what David did, and think on all the victories God has already brought me through. But that’s not all. I’m also going to fast forward my brain and imagine how it will feel to be able to look back and watch all of this in reverse and see how God orchestrated every moment from the beginning steps to His glorious outcomes.

If God is whispering something to you, I hope this brings encouragement to your heart. Step out in faith to do whatever He’s asking you to do. One day, you’ll be able to watch things in reverse and, what might not have made sense today, will make perfect sense in His timing.

Be blessed,
C.K.

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